Our lives are full of moments. These moments can be huge or they can be insignificant. Sometimes these moments feel like an eternity, while other times they fizzle away into almost nothing, leaving barely a shadow. Whether the moment comes to us expected or unexpected, they still shape us into the people we are today. No matter how big or small they are, moments can lift us up to the top of the world, or they can tear us down and unmake us.
In my life, one of my biggest moments as a writer was that first email from Marci at Wild Child Publishing extending an offer to publish my book, Spirit Summoner. The offer came a couple months before the birth of my son. I still remember how surreal the feeling was entering into two new worlds, the world of a published author and the world of fatherhood. More than anything, the moment attached itself to me, and promised the fulfillment on a life-long dream. The process of editing revealed a whole new series of moments, big and small, that shaped me as an author.
Which brings me to this past weekend when I received an email from Marci informing me Wild Child Publishing will be closing at the end of the year. The moment was a big one.
Where do I go from here? What about the final book in my series? What about the books I’ve already published? What about my fellow Wild Child authors? The questions flooded my head, breaking my spirit down. New doubts and new fears split me in half. By the morning, I was a shell of myself, numb to the feeling of defeat the moment had brought me.
Luckily though, I’ve faced defeat before. I’ve faced years of rejection from other publishing houses and agents, and undoubtedly, I’ll face some more. But I won’t give up. I’ll figure out a way to get my third book published, and when that’s done, I’ll keep on writing. Shawn Howen, my editor with Wild Child and a huge credit to making the first two books what they are, has agreed to continue to help edit the last book. This alone has fueled the fires of perseverance in me. I couldn’t imagine wrapping up my final book with Shawn’s help.
As for The Chosen of the Light series, I might have to self-publish in order to keep them out in the world, which is a compromise I’m prepared to make. I’m not sure how I feel about self-publishing yet, but I’ll learn more about it in the coming weeks.
I want to assure my readers that I’m fully committed to finishing the series and to continue to write. When all is said and done, this is just another moment, a big one yes, but a moment that will be followed by another and another. I have many more yet to come.